PROPAGANDA (2007)

(I Only Do These Things ‘Cause) I Love You

OTHER

CELEBRITY OBSESSION

Lyrics and Music by Emma L.M. Sweeney
©2007 All Rights Reserved

Celebrity obsession…

It doesn’t matter if you got a slice of talent
Because they only want you if you’re messed up
It helps to be Daddy’s Little Princess
An hotel heiress, American child star
If you don’t have the look and you don’t fit the mould
You can’t be something that you’re not just for the money
Let me tell you what I learned up ’til now

It’s all about the one that you date, that you’re cheating on
(You ain’t going nowhere sailing down the mainstream)
The drugs that you take, anorexia they feed upon
(Nobody wants you if you won’t make a fool of yourself)
Reality shows, cocaine up your nose
(Come over here, just shut your mouth)
Private videos…where can I get those clothes?
(We don’t want opinions, we just want someone to talk about)

Don’t worry about it if they catch you doing something
Because they really love it when you mess up
It helps to be tweakin’ in the morning
Perezalicious, half-hearted Wino
Don’t bother learning your craft – that’s a fact
If it wasn’t so pathetic it would be some kind of funny
Let me tell you what I learned up ’til now

Overdose…miss the gig…man, I think I’m pregnant
Did you call OK? Let’s have a happy ending
Say cheese, pretty please, it’s the paparazzi
I quit my girl band – new perfume out next week!
Who’s that man on my step? He says he knows me
Did we have a thing? Did he get any photos of me?
I can’t move my face! I can’t move my face!
Oh my goodness, my fillets just won’t stay in place
I bet you wish you looked half as good as me
I bet you wish you were a celebrity

It doesn’t matter if you got a slice of talent
Because they only want you if you’re messed up
It helps to be married to a footballer
Breast augmentation, comedian’s daughter
If you don’t have the look and you don’t fit the mould
You can’t be something that you’re not just for the money
Let me tell you what I learned up ’til now

CHRISTOPHER

Lyrics & Music by Emma L.M. Sweeney
©1996 All Rights Reserved

It’s a mistake
Why can’t you see this is all a mistake?

You’re laughing and telling yourself
This is what you wanted
Yeah, you grin and keep spinning her around
(Why can’t you see that)
Until you’re a dervish and everyone else is a blur
(This is what you wanted?)

Ah, Christopher, what have you done?

You planned the whole thing by yourself
This is what you wanted
Yeah, you hired the best caterer in town
(Why can’t you see that)
Don’t want to be too old to run with your sons in the park
(This is what you wanted?)

Ah, Christopher, what have you done?
This isn’t a business transaction
Make-believing you’re somebody else
(Why can’t you just leave life to chance?)
What if she ever found out
(’Cause she don’t love you)
That she’s not the one who draws you out
(And you don’t love her)
But her name fell out of a hat?
(Why can’t you just leave life to chance, yeah?)

You’re making a fool of yourself
This is what you wanted
Bought a house and you’ve got a flash car
(why can’t you see that)
If you think you’re changing the girl, then you’re mistaken
(This is what you wanted?)

Ah, Christopher, what have you done?
This isn’t a business transaction
Make-believing you’re somebody else
(Why can’t you just leave life to chance?)
What if she ever found out (’Cause she don’t love you)
That she’s not the one who draws you out
(And you don’t love her)
But her name fell out of a hat?
(Why can’t you just leave life to chance, yeah?)

She’s not right for you
Christopher, robbin’ a girl of her twenties only spells trouble
(You can tell everyone this is what you want)
He said: “You’re a fine one to talk;
You wouldn’t be saddled with everyday life.”

(Why can’t you just leave life to chance, yeah?)
Oh, Christopher, what have you done?

CRAVE

Help me. Talk to me. Save me and take me in your arms.

You need it, you want it, scarred, exsanguinated
Try to resist, but you can’t
Voice inside calling you, leading you to the ritual
Feeding too much…

Save me, I’ll get what you want
I’ll try to supply what you crave
Come on and take me into your arms
That’s where I belong – I can’t save myself
Save me, I’ll get what you want
Don’t try to deny what you crave
Come on and take me into your arms
That’s where I belong – I can’t save myself

You cut me open, my veins run with poison
Do I exist? What’s your plan?
Voice inside calling you, leading you to the ritual
Feeding too much…

Look at you
You keep holding out and I wonder now what’s left of you
‘Cause it all hangs out, like the system’s down
Empty carcass now, tired of bleeding

Voice inside calling you, leading you to the ritual
Feeling too much…

Lyrics and Music by Emma L.M. Sweeney
©1995 All Rights Reserved

DAYS GONE BY – ROCKSTAR ALLSTARS

(Anna Lux, Alienare, Schwarzschild, Seraina Telli, Spiegelbild, Elias Bertini, Aura Davis, Queen Tantrum & QUAND)

My ship has sailed the seas so long
With not a port in sight
I’m not too sure where I belong
My dreams have taken flight

For days gone by, my love, for days gone by
We’ll drink a cup of kindness, love
For the sake of days gone by

The road ahead is fractured yet
But hope I still can find
The friends to come, the friends we’ve met
Will stand the test of time

For days gone by, my love, for days gone by
We’ll drink a cup of kindness, love
For the sake of days gone by

There never was a better chance
To say what’s in my heart
So whether friendship or romance
We’ll never break apart

For days gone by, my love, for days gone by
We’ll drink a cup of kindness, love
For the sake of days gone by

These words, commit them to your mind
Whether near or far
We’ll overcome the rocky times
This is who we are

For days gone by, my dear, for days gone by
We’ll drink a cup of kindness here
For the sake of days gone by

Lyrics by Emma L.M. Sweeney
©2021 All Rights Reserved

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DEAD AND BURIED

I can give you so much more
Trouble is, you must decide
Honesty ain’t anything
It’s a place behind the lies

Never think I don’t respect you
Kill the beast, don’t let it die!

Yesterday is dead and buried
Open up tomorrow soon
Under no circumstance
Kick it out this afternoon

Now, it seems your world is changing
Obvious, yet so unclear
Why don’t you just step on out
Why don’t you stamp out this fear?

Lyrics and Music by Emma L.M. Sweeney
©2004 All Rights Reserved

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HOLLYWOOD

You’re not the one, you ruined everything

You’re not the one – you ruined everything
You’re not the one, don’t try to take my liberty
I’ve seen it all, been here before
I gave you my best but you screwed it up again
I’m not the one who ever let you down
So let it go, I’m done with messing round
Your foolish mind, so open wide
Taking the arsenic so deep inside, yeah!

Your web of lies, you act so good
Yeah, you should be in Hollywood!
Try to twist my mind
Only good thing I got from you was your child!
You talk so cheap, didn’t think you could
Yeah, you should be in Hollywood!
And I won’t be here waiting for you
For so long you had me fooled

You’re not the one who gave up everything
You dropped the ball, so irresponsible
So what am I? Your petty crime?
You’re wasting my time, little boy don’t cry!
If you must consummate your seedy lust
Take it somewhere I can’t see you turn to dust
You know it all, so why are you falling?
Now I feel that I never really knew you!

You’re not the one – you ruined everything
You’re not the one, don’t try to take a piece of me
Hey stupid boy, you won’t destroy me
I gave you my best but you screwed it up again
I’m not the one who doesn’t come around
Still can’t believe the disappointment I have found
Your foolish mind, so open wide
Taking the arsenic so deep inside, yeah!

You’re not the one
You ruined everything (You should be in Hollywood!)
You’re not the one
You ruined everything
You ruined everything

Lyrics and Music by Emma L.M. Sweeney
©2007 All Rights Reserved

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HONESTY

You look at me, my painted smile to deceive you
It’s not over – it’s never gonna be over
And I stand next to me, and I feel diseased just being here
And I’m not free, ’cause I see what she sees
She’s just a corpse pickin’ at her cuts to see you

Sadistic streak – and it gets so hard thinkin’ rationally
And I’m older. I’m always older.
And I feel so weak, it’s just not like it used to be
When I was you and you were me

But in my Honesty, you’d better believe it
If you want to see the colour beneath it
And if I made you leave – that’s not how I see it
And if I knew then what I know now…

You look at me – is my painted smile still deceiving you?
I told her, yes, I told her
She’s black and blue, what did you do? Tell me, darlin’, is it clear to you?
And I wonder why she didn’t end her life?

But in my Honesty, you’d better believe it
If you want to see the colour beneath it
And if I made you leave – that’s not how I see it
And if I knew then what I know now

She’s just a word forming on your lips to please you
She’s just a wreck slashing at her wrists to see you
She’s just a corpse picking at her cuts to feel you

And if I knew then what I know now…
And if I knew then what I know now…
If I knew then…

Lyrics and Music by Emma L.M. Sweeney
©2007 All Rights Reserved

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I AM WARRIOR

So long we’ve lived under your rules enslaved
By the vision that you hold, your pride while we keep dying
So long we’ve cried for lovers lost and hope defied
And nobody used to see the men behind the curtain
Or their mission

But as the day of reckoning draws ever near
Warriors rise from slumber, we’re taking back our world
It was meant to be
A promised paradise, where everyone can thrive
Peace and harmony, not lies and greed where no one’s free

I am a fighter! I Am Warrior
Time to smash your system down,
I am your nightmare – I am Light!
I am a fighter! I Am Warrior
Time to crush your plans under my feet
I am the one you fear – I Am Light!

How long did you think you could make us suffer for your sins?
The hammer falls, I accuse and sentence you to life, I’ll bind
Move on, these are not your people and this is not your time
You are nothing but shadow beasts, so scatter, run and hide

And as the day of reckoning draws ever near
Warriors rise from slumber, we’re taking back our world, it was meant to be
A promised paradise, where everyone can thrive
Peace and harmony, not lies and greed where no one’s free

I Am Warrior!

Lyrics and Music by Emma L.M. Sweeney
©2007 All Rights Reserved

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(I ONLY DO THESE THINGS ‘CAUSE) I LOVE YOU

Everything will turn out fine
‘Cause we’re meant to be together
And I know you feel the same
It’s the way it’s meant to be, we’ll be so happy
Believe me
(I only do these things ’cause I love you)

Instead of wasting time, accept the things I tell you
‘Cause I know what’s best for us
You don’t see what I see, when I see
A future grown through our history!
(I only do these things ’cause I love you)

Now you want to tell me no? I don’t think so!
When you push me away I know you don’t really mean it
You and I could be so good, I know we would
Just try to relax; you gotta learn to let go!

It’s been the longest time since we woke up together
And I know you miss it too
So I’ll make the first move, won’t hold it against you
I forgive you
(I only do these things ’cause I love you)

You can’t be wondering how I came to this conclusion
I don’t know what’s wrong with you
Unless you lied and if so, that would make me so angry
(I only do these things ’cause I love you)

Now you want to tell me no? I don’t think so!
When you push me away I know you don’t really mean it
You and I could be so good, I know we would
Just try to relax – you gotta learn to let go!

Stop struggling, it doesn’t hurt
I thought by now that you would have come to your senses
Can’t you see it’s you and me – Not her! Who’s she?
I don’t care! She’s out of the picture!

Now you want to tell me no? (Not her! Who’s she? Not her!)
I don’t think so!
When you push me away I know you don’t really mean it
You and I could be so good (Stop struggling, it doesn’t hurt)
I know we would (Not her! Not her! Who’s she?)
Just try to relax – you gotta learn to let go!

Now you want to tell me no? I don’t think so
I only do these things ’cause I love you

Lyrics and Music by Emma L.M. Sweeney
©2007 All Rights Reserved

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INTO THIS

Lyrics and Music by Emma L.M. Sweeney
©2007 All Rights Reserved

Cyanide, now the time has come to
Go, discard the things that you hold onto
Nitrogen, you’re feeling under pressure now
But you brought it on yourself

You believe you’re innocent
Don’t understand why all these things hit you the way they do
Oh no, of course it’s not because you’re down
In a pit of hypocrisy

I don’t know if you want to get into this
But if you’re gonna get into this
I’m never gonna back down

Lithium can only do so much to keep you grounded
Even though you want to be the New Messiah
Come to save us now
But God’s not in you

When you gonna see that your delusion
Is the cause of permanent confusion?
All consuming fire, watch the flames burn down
To the root of your hell

I don’t know if you want to get into this
But if you’re gonna get into this
I’m never gonna back down

How to fight a creature with no conscience?
A person does not deserve this
Take me off your game – I want to believe it’s all the same
Take me off your team – I want to believe, but I don’t

I don’t know if you want to get into this
But if you’re gonna get into this
I’m never gonna back down
I don’t know if you want to get into this

ISLAND

Lyrics and Music by Emma L.M. Sweeney
©2019 All Rights Reserved

I’m stuck on an island and I can barely swim
I didn’t design it, but I’m complicit
I let it suck out my centre, I watch as it takes the best of me
My soul doesn’t want to die
But I don’t want to live like this any more

I don’t want to die, but I don’t want to live
If things stay the same
’Cause I’m all out of fucks to give
I’ve been fed a lie, I quit!
Haven’t I suffered? Haven’t I suffered enough!

I just have to find it, my inner fatal femme
I’m dumb and I’m blinded, yeah, I’m conflicted
I let you make me feel less than a nothing
And now I’m sick of it
My soul doesn’t want to die
But I don’t want to live like this any more

I don’t want to die, but I don’t want to live
If things stay the same
’Cause I’m all out of fucks to give
I’ve been fed a lie, I quit!
Haven’t I suffered? Haven’t I suffered enough!

I’m sick to death of the hurt and the pain
Deep in the ground, I buried my shame
I’m over the shit, ’cause I’ve done my time
So, why are you keeping me locked up inside?
All of the bleakness, the black, the despair
Why you got me stuck down here?
Consuming the fires of my rage
And soon I will escape!

There’s gotta be more than this!
With this Resurrection, Divine Intervention will
Keep me in Grace!

I don’t want to die, but I don’t want to live
If things stay the same
’Cause I’m all out of fucks to give
I’ve been fed a lie, I quit!
Haven’t I suffered? Haven’t I suffered enough!

I’m awakened, I’m waking up
They try to fake me that I’m not enough
Forsaken, and I’m done
Haven’t I suffered? Haven’t I suffered enough!

MY LOVE

Lyrics and Music by Emma L.M. Sweeney
©2017 All Rights Reserved

You promised to change a little too late
I’ve heard it before anyway
This is the end of the life that we made
You say I can’t believe the things that I see
Keep twisting my reality
I don’t know how, but I’ll find a way out

My love, it faded, ’cause your love, it crossed the line
I know it’s over and God knows how hard I tried
I won’t forgive you, but I will forget in time
Maybe my heart will heal

These are my eyes, you made me blind
You cut off my air supply
You’ve taken it all, well-played from the stalls
With every smile, you planned my demise
Behind my back, and I wasn’t prepared
When you left me to die

My love, it faded, ’cause your love, it crossed the line
I know it’s over and God knows how hard I tried
I won’t forgive you, but I will forget in time
Maybe my heart will heal

But it’s not like I’m waiting
I don’t expect for a hole that is blown out
To fill up immediately
I know that life will be hell for a time
But I know that things will get better for me
I’ll celebrate the small victories
I know that one day, I will be free

My love, it faded, ’cause your love, it crossed the line
Thank God it’s over, ’cause God knows how hard I tried
I won’t forgive you, but I will forget in time
Maybe my heart will heal…

NEVER ENOUGH

Lyrics and Music by Emma L.M. Sweeney
©2007 All Rights Reserved

I’m open to the main attraction – what part do you play?
I’m waitin’, still there’s no reaction from you
You’re dead as a doornail
Frustration – my default setting!
Complication! Who knows where I’ve been
In my mind? I try to fit in but you never give in!

I don’t got big titties to sell myself
I don’t got a vacation in your bed
It doesn’t matter what I do
‘Cause I’ll never be enough for you!
I don’t have a disease to state my case
I don’t have a politic or race, yeah, I’m feelin’ somethin’ else!

I could split myself in two like a hole blown out
It don’t matter, ’cause I’m never enough
I’m never enough, I’m never!
I could hold on to you, nahaaaaaooooow-ooh!! Uh!
You know it’s never enough, I’m never enough, I’m never!

I’m feeling like I’m in a freak show – why are you staring?
It’s all these little things remind me
I don’t ever want to be anything like you
Frustration – my default setting! Complication!
Who knows where I’ve been
In my mind? I try to fit in but you never give in!

I don’t got extensions from my head
I don’t got a fake tan turning red
Ain’t gonna change the way I am to be suitin’ you
I don’t have a disease to state my case
I don’t have a politic or race, yeah, I’m feelin’ somethin’ else!

I could split myself in two, get my heart blown out
It don’t matter, ’cause I’m never enough
I’m never enough, I’m never!
I could hold on to you, nahaaaaaooooow-ooh!! Uh!
You know it’s never enough, I’m never enough, I’m never!

I don’t have an opinion about your
Soap opera family conundrum
Small-minded, offensive people
Damn, your life must be humdrum
I don’t have a disease to state my case
I don’t have a politic or race
Yeah, I’m feelin’ somethin’ else!

I could sell myself to you, like a whore gone bad
It don’t matter, ’cause I’m never enough
I’m never enough, I’m never!
I could hold on to you, nahaaaaaooooow-ooh!! Uh!
You know it’s never enough, I’m never enough, I’m never!

NOT YOUR WHORE

Lyrics and Music by Emma L.M. Sweeney
©2007 All Rights Reserved

I don’t know what goes on inside your mind
You say what you think I want to hear
It doesn’t mean anything
You can’t deny, so asinine
So hypocritical! “Too critical!” said I

You’re not the same, someone to blame? You’re the one
Giving me up for the one who deserted you when you were
Opening up, taking a chance riding love
Then she screwed you up – You tried to do that to me

But I’m not your wet nurse and I’m not your whore
And I’m not your consolation prize any more
Never again can I be that understanding friend
Who gives herself to you, it’s never-ending!

I try not to let the rage burn deep inside
But it gets hard when I’m so sick of all your pathetic lies
I knew I was right! I ask myself why
Did I get so knotted up in the mess you call your life?

Boy, you’re so lame…if you’re going to lie, do it well
You should be ashamed; it’s so evident, your transparency
Got to reclaim the peace in my mind I once felt
Before you dispelled it – Stop coming after me

You were the one, the one that I thought I could trust
But I was wrong…it was all an illusion created
Now you don’t belong, so why are you still calling me up?
Hey, don’t make a fuss – You lied and mishandled me.

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PROMISE YOU

Lyrics and Music by Emma L.M. Sweeney
©2007 All Rights Reserved

What’s wrong now? Tell me what you’re feeling
‘Cause I can’t stand how you bottle it inside
And I know that, that you don’t believe in
Anything, anything, anything at all
But I will try to, try to convince you
Life doesn’t have to be like that
No, it doesn’t have to be like that, yeah, I promise you

Why so sad? You’ve got a friend in me now
As I told you, I’ll be there for you tonight
And I know that, that you don’t believe me
I guess I don’t always get it right
But I will try to, try to convince you
Life doesn’t have to be like that
No, it doesn’t have to be like that, yeah, I promise you

Remember when I said:
“Even though a lot of time could pass
And you’re behaving like an ass, I’ll be your friend, I’ll be there for you.”
How we laughed at all the (My)spaces with a shrine to all
Your videos and alcohol
I’ll be your friend, I’ll be there for you

What’s wrong now? Tell me what you’re feeling
‘Cause I can’t stand how you bottle it inside
And I know that, that you don’t believe in
Anything, anything, anything at all
But I will try to, try to convince you that life doesn’t have to be like that
No, it doesn’t have to be like that, Yeah, I promise you

Townshend, Pan and Ustinov – it’s crazy how we hit it off
But now it’s getting kinda hard to
Be your friend and be there for you
You should consider how I keep my counsel even now
Despite the love you give her she won’t care
And she won’t be there for you

What’s wrong now? Tell me what you’re feeling…

—

ROLL THE DICE

Lyrics and Music by Emma L.M. Sweeney
©2007 All Rights Reserved

You got a one-track, sleazy mind
Always looking for new action
But the one thing you can’t find is
Happiness and peace of mind

You gotta give and take sometimes
‘Cause it’s not always about you
And in the old days, you could get away
With the games that don’t work for you now

‘Cause your lines are tired and you just look desperate!

Your time is up so give it to me
I’ll roll the dice and still come up three times
Head straight to jail, you’ve broken your vow
Don’t pass Go, give it up; you’re worthless now

You got a lustful, wanderin’ eye
It used to drive me to distraction
That the one thing you can’t find
Was in front of you, but you’re staring blind

Did you think I wouldn’t mind
How you put everyone above me?
Well, in the old days, you could get away
With your games, ’cause I had no sense of self
But now your lines are tired and you just look desperate!

You got a take-it-easy mind
No, you never lift a finger
And the one thing you can’t find is
Striding off into the light
It’s a pointless exercise
Trying to explain this to you
You won’t listen, you’re just missing
The games you played that don’t work for you now

(You had the time, you had the choice, you had it all)
(You gave it up, you wanted more, you want it all)
(You don’t know what you lost in me)
(You don’t pass go, you lost the game, you lost the round)
(You lost the game)
(You lost the game)
(You lost the game)

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SALUTE TO THE QUEEN

Lyrics and Music by Emma L.M. Sweeney
©2007 All Rights Reserved

Disappointment rush through me
Ain’t it funny how you managed to get away?
I’m alone again in dirty sheets
I bet you’re thinking: “Such an easy lay”
But you’re not the man I want – just a pale imitation of the one before
And your cheap invitation…well, it gets me off
But who made you the god of all?

Warm the ointment; calm the burn now
Ain’t it funny how we make the same mistake again?
Unreliable, self-centred
So don’t promise things you can’t deliver anyway
But you’re not the man I want – just a pale imitation of the one before
And this strange conversation…well, it sets me off
But who made you the god of all…

Passion? It’s not your friend! Passion! It’s just a weakness in the end!

And I – I’ll reach an impasse
And you – you bring the JD
And we – we’ll make a video
Line up toy soldiers, salute to the Queen!
I’ll reach an impasse
And you – you bring the JD
And we, we’ll make a video
Line up toy soldiers, salute to the Queen!

Breaking glass will cut your hands up
Ain’t it funny how I never ever miss a beat?
Wrap your hands up; dirty bandage
Darkened ink won’t be enough to wash your soul clean
But you’re not the man I want – just a pale imitation of the one before
And this weird situation…well, it gets too much
Who made you the god of all…

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SCREW YOU

Lyrics and Music by Emma L.M. Sweeney
©2017 All Rights Reserved

Look through my eyes, touch through my hands
I’m a watercolor scar
Cut off your tongue, so I know that you hurt
You know I’m not afraid of hell
‘Cause I drank with the devil before
One shot for my anger, two shots for my soul!

Now it’s eye for eye for the minds that you untied,
Worked your way through all the hearts of the
Pretty people
Screw your shit advice for someone else’s life
Your arrogant intent repels me – Screw you!

Want me to suck, but you just spit
Nothing’s good enough for you
Faceted face, I’ll be ten people too
You know I’ll not get lost in hell
‘Cause I’ve danced with the devil before
Foxtrotted out my anger, salsa-ed out my soul!

Now it’s eye for eye for the minds that you untied,
Worked your way through all the hearts of the
Pretty people
From another time, no place for you inside
Old enough to make up for your bad behaviour
Threatened by the scene where someone else has been
You’re pleasured by the pain, but I won’t leave you smiling
Screw your shit advice for someone else’s life
Your arrogant intent repels me – Screw you!

You fucked up everything, won’t take your blame
I’m not your sculpture to mould
Hoped that you’d die for me, you won’t oblige
Still, I see you’re just as cold

So what if I break – what’s all the fuss? No, I can’t forgive
Judas inside, betraying my trust
You know I’m not afraid of hell
‘Cause I’ve met with the devil before
Showing through your actions
Sweating through your pores

Screw you!

SEEN IT ALL

Lyrics and Music by Emma L.M. Sweeney
©2011 All Rights Reserved

Does your life amount to this?
Cheaper thrills, synthetic bliss
And I’ve seen it all, I’ve seen it all before
When you try to chameleon, it only hides what you want
And I’ve seen it all, I’ve seen it all before

So gimme the warmth, gimme the breeze
Gimme the air that I can breathe
Gimme the sand, give me the beach
Gimme the waves upon the sea
Gimme the night, give me the dream
Gimme the truth, not what it seems
Gimme the sun, gimme the rain
Gimme a world without a chain

All the methods that you trust, in a second turn to dust
And I’ve seen it all, I’ve seen it all before
Our whole existence, it can change
I’m about to turn the page
‘Cause I’ve seen it all, I’ve seen it all before

Hearing I’m the one you name, whatever, I’ll take the blame
‘Cause I’ve seen it all, I’ve seen it all before
Roll the dice, place your bet, but you haven’t beat me yet
‘Cause I’ve seen it all, I’ve seen it all before

(Our whole existence, it can change, everything rearranged
And I’ve seen it all, I’ve seen it all before)

—

SWALLOW

Lyrics and Music by Emma L.M. Sweeney
©2011 All Rights Reserved

Looking-glass people with black eyes
Despair of the way that I want to be
Anyone can see that I’m only trying to be myself again
But yesterday told me that I wasn’t perfect
That I’m not enough for someone like you and your crew
I’m the fool who sits and bleeds and waits for you…

To feed me a morsel, drop me a breadcrumb or two
As if it could keep me from eating my insides

Just get away from me!
Don’t touch my skin, ’cause I’m hollow
From all the pain – you’re a bitter pill to swallow
Just get away from me! I’ll be a good girl tomorrow
But today, I’ll go insane – I’m a bitter pill to swallow.

I laugh it all off, but sometimes
These secrets wanna break out of my head
What you gave to me was a burden I didn’t deserve, yeah
And yesterday told me that I was just useful
For when you wanted to offload your pain
And your problems
You never reciprocated my love for you

I’m a ghost in your house
I’m a thought without a consequence
No one explaining these things, now you’re absent

TAKEN IN

My secret, my best friend, my honey
Paint me green again
My soul twin, my moonlight, my confidante is gone
I never got the chance to save you from the demon blood
Who stole the golden discus
Like a sun pulled from the sky to dusk

They’ve been taken in – well, take away my pain
Take away my rage – Let justice prevail
So hail and farewell, kick it in the rear for me
I know who should feel guilty. And I rage. I ache.

My sight and my music, my translator
Paint me green again
My angel, my great ape, my partner-in-crime is gone
I never got the chance to make it like it used be
If time is like a boomerang, it’ll send you flying back to me

They’ve been taken in – well, take away my pain
Take away my rage – Let justice prevail
So hail and farewell, kick it in the rear for me
I know who should feel guilty. And I rage.

Tito said I can’t believe in everything that I’m not hearing
He told me that he’s got your back and everyone is throwing a party
So much bullshit and deceit, my fury is enraged, unleashed
I will avenge you, not forget you! Shakespeare! Shakespeare!

My home and my heart and my comfort – paint me green again
My red-blooded meat-eater, so sweet a friend is gone
I never got the chance to wade into another joke
Someone stole you from the ones who love you – don’t forget about us!

They’ve been taken in – God, take away my pain
Take away my rage – Let justice prevail
So hail and farewell, kick it in the rear for me
I know who should feel guilty.

I rage. I ACHE.

TONGUE TIED

Tongue-tied, are you twisted, are you nervous?
Is it making you foolish? Are you fakin’? Are you no one?
Am I taking you somewhere that you don’t want to remember
‘Cause you see how you once were, and you still are, and you will be?
But I gotta get inside you

Forever tongue-tied! You know that
Forever twisted! I said, I gotta get inside you

And I know you don’t want to know that
You can’t hold me back any longer
Why so sad?
We both know that we’re heading for a disaster!
And I know the difference between us
I can’t hold on any longer
Yeah, I know that; so quit saying:
“It’s all gone but I can’t believe it!”

Tongue-tied, unassisted, out of service
Is it making you reckless? Are you shameless?
Are you hopeless?
Am I drinking you up like a Mojito, Cuban Hiball
Drink it up like a good man, tip and swallow, like you do me
And now I gotta get inside you

Don’t tell my heart to speak the truth
I may or may not think of you
But I’ll never say a word; it would be my undoing
For one last time, let’s be uncouth
And consequently we’ll undo
The ties that bind, but for now I will leave you

Tongue-tied, intercepted, unprotected
‘Cause you’re mine and I’m
Your own sweet Achilles, Belladonna, Deadly Nightshade
We’re sickened and we’re toxic; mass confusion
But we both want it
Last time! Nearly over and it will be forever!

Don’t want it – a covert operation
Don’t want it – another complication
Don’t want it – a bad situation
Don’t want it – a cheaper imitation
Don’t want it – a hidden combination
Don’t want it – a bad education
Don’t want it – another accusation
Don’t want it – I had a revelation!

—

TRICK OF THE LIGHT

Black night, bright stars, but you’re still afraid
Toss and turn, you can’t sleep in the bed you made
Something wet, something sticky in your hair
Is it blood? Is it guilt of your dirty little deeds?

Fake-baked, not a doctor, nor a priest
I don’t care that you’re pickin’ on me
You’ve got a fault, baby; you’re a bad seed
Feel sorry for yourself, if that’s what you need, yeah!

It’s not a trick of the light – we’re all the same in the dark
Leave it all up to you; you don’t know what you want
Just get over it – start being a man
You know you’re responsible for all that happened

Princess, manifest into a Queen
Slight of hand, you can’t see what you’ve done to me
It doesn’t matter, ‘cos I’ve won it in the end
Got God, what you got? Did you lose your only friend?

Don’t take what another man could be
Hoping that your twisted mind’s free
Close your eyes, when I’m holding out the key
Feel sorry for yourself if that’s what you need, yeah!

Fake-baked, not a doctor, nor a priest
I don’t care that you’re pickin’ on me
You’ve got a fault, baby; you’re a bad seed
Feel sorry for yourself, if that’s what you need, yeah!

—

VIOLENTLY

Black veil and falling tears for my loss
And I stood out in the darkness
And I wished for you to take my hand and
Sweep me off my feet
Cripple me with longing, me and my psychoses
What good could you do after that anyway?

It doesn’t count if you stick out
Your tongue and count to twenty-one
A boy could do that – how am I supposed to sleep now?
You’re so amoral in your thoughts
Machiavellian in your deeds
Still you don’t see me!

And I’m violently shaken, I violently fall
You don’t understand me, or the nature of my soul
You know I’m violently open, violently closed
Suffocate my senses, violently cold
Violently

I knelt down at the foot of your cross
And I prayed for my salvation
And I begged for you to take me with you
Got down on my knees
I’m desperately trying to walk across the water
The waves, they cover me, but you don’t rescue me

You never heard me anyway
But you don’t want me to be anything without you
So I wrap myself around you
I’m just like ivy on a tree, black molasses on a knife
But you won’t share your life!

And I’m violently shaken, I violently fall
You don’t understand me, or the nature of my soul
You know I’m violently open, violently closed
Suffocate my senses, violently cold
Violently

Empty and full, head facing both ways
I’ve tried this before
This passing sensation is sinful and pure
Complicated simplicity – this is my state of mind

And I’m violently shaken, I violently fall
You don’t understand me, or the nature of my soul
You know I’m violently open, violently closed
Suffocate my senses, violently cold
Violently

And I’m violently wanting, I violently call
Cover me with kisses, make no sense at all
You know I’m violently aching, I violently stall
Caught in your enchantment, violently enthralled
Violently

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WAITING

I feel like a mannequin
All dressed up in my underwear
Waiting for you, aching for you
Breaking for you and you’re never there

Close my eyes so that I can see
I pretend, it’s a fantasy
Faking for you, taking for you
Waking for you, but there’s only me

So come on tell me now how you want it now
I love the way you show up when you’re needy
I know the inside out, don’t think I’m blinded now
So cheap and nasty is your game
And it’s all about you

Five and you haven’t called me yet
I sit smoking a cigarette
Waiting for you, aching for you
Breaking for you – turn on the TV set

And I can’t stay away
You’re lighting up my face (You make a brighter day)
I know it’s temporary
It always will be, you don’t really want me
(Come on honey, say you want me, say you need me)
But I keep on waiting, anticipating that one day you will be
(Come on honey, say you want me, say you need me)

And I know that you don’t feel the same
You don’t look at me that way
It’s only physical for you
And I need you and I want you, but you don’t

I feel like a mannequin
All dressed up in my underwear
Waiting for you, aching for you
Breaking for you and you’re never there…

—

WHITE ALLIGATORS

(How could you be so nasty? How can you be so vile?)
You were the one who hunted me down
Rocked my world, yeah
Said that we were twin souls, we broke the mould, us against them all (P.T.R.)
You and I on the phone, internet, yeah
So what you jonesin’ for now?
(I’ve been cast out! What’s your new addiction?)

And yourself, you know that you’re lyin’, full of shit, yeah
Come on now, give it to me, give it to me, give it
Give it to me, yeah!
You know the way you fake it, it makes you look so vacant
Oh, now, give it to me, give it to me, give it
Give it to me – oh I think you’re outta luck now!
(And the worst thing is you’re making out that I’m the crazy one, but you and I know the truth)

You’re a selfish S.O.B. – it’s always you, you, YOU, never ME!
(You know, it’s so sad that you turned out to be exactly the type of person that you claim to hate)
But I made allowances for you and your fucked-up brain
So I said “I’ll let him go on with his fantasy
(but you and I know the truth)
I don’t want to ruin things; I don’t wanna rock the gig”
(No confrontation, just humiliation)

(So what did you get out of this?)

How could you do me like this
When I want to believe in you?
(You don’t get to absolve yourself by blaming it on your chemical imbalances, Poor Me syndrome, or just being forgetful, or that you’re an addict.)
You said we were friends, you said that you loved me now
You’d always have my back
But you LIED. (You don’t get to do that.)
You LIED. You’re always LYING (you’re an addict).
Why didn’t I see?
(You don’t get to do that. You’re an addict.)
How did I let you get to me? (How could you be so nasty? How can you be so vile?)

And yourself, you know that you’re lyin’, full of shit, yeah
(And you made me feel like a fool, yeah!)
Come on now, give it to me, give it to me, give it
Give it to me, yeah!
(You made me think I was losing my mind)
You know the way you fake it, it makes you look so vacant
Oh, now, give it to me, give it to me, give it
Give it to me – oh I think you’re outta luck now!

And yourself, you know that you’re lyin’, full of shit, yeah
(No I never did anything to warrant the way you treat me now, yeah)
Come on now, give it to me, give it to me, give it
Give it to me, yeah!
You know the way you fake it, it makes you look so vacant
(You know you’re not being fair to me now, I gave you my all, I gave you my heart)
Oh, now, give it to me, give it to me, give it
Give it to me – oh I think you’re outta luck now!

(So what did you get out of this?)

—

YOU DON’T KNOW ME

Drugged up and emptied out
Stacked up and cracked down
(Barely 21, you feel 100 years have gone)
Mind-funked and overwrought
Programmed and partied out
(Keep your legs closed, eyes open, functional black hole)

You can’t hide, it’s not right, you know that
So don’t try, just take flight!

I see you slutting through the bars
In the back of cars, taking men home
(Keep your legs closed, eyes open, functional black hole)
Looking for a place to lay your head
You’re giving head like it’s all
You’ve gotta give, something’s gotta give, you gotta give!

Still you say!

Don’t criticize what you don’t know, you don’t know me!
(I’m too high tonight, I’m falling from the sky)
Just fantasize about the side of me I want you to see!
(Don’t glance behind the poisoned paradigm!)

Everything is wonderful
And I’m so damned happy
This hole inside my heart feels good
Believe what I’m saying…

Don’t criticize what you don’t know, you don’t know me!
(I’m too high tonight, I’m falling from the sky)
Just fantasise about the side of me I want you to see!
(Don’t glance behind the poisoned paradigm!)

ALPHABET ON MY TONGUE

You don’t know that I wouldn’t have said Yes
I didn’t get the chance to say anything at all
I don’t care if you want to take what I say out of context
But please, please don’t put an alphabet on my tongue

I see you without me, now we’re living apart
And I don’t like what my eyes are trying to tell my heart
That you’re in someone else’s arms

If you wanted to take this further
You should have indicated your intentions
I don’t care, there is no point in trying to second guess
How the hell was I supposed to know?

I see you without me, now we’re living apart
And I don’t like what my eyes are trying to tell my heart
That you’re in someone else’s arms

This is what happens when people don’t talk
When we don’t want to fall
Missing out on opportunities that we
We don’t want to see
I guess we’re conditioned to say nothing

A LITTLE MORE LOVE Yes, I played my part, I don’t think I’m an angel But something fell apart long before I maimed it Now I’m on the run, I guess what’s done is done Now I’m on the run again Yes, I’m taking off, me and my jaded heart Now I’m on the run again Let’s not pretend that you don’t comprehend! ‘Cause I need a little more love I don’t ever get enough My soul is worn out and torn I need to escape you, ‘cause I’m giving up I need a little more love But you don’t ever give it up My world is hollow and dark So don’t make a scene when I get up and walk I’m on the run, I’m on the run again I need a little more love Lyrics and Music by Emma L.M. Sweeney ©2017 All Rights Reserved	Table
ALL FALL DOWN Everybody’s stumbling around Lost in the dark, can’t find a way out Innocence gone, but not hope God, can I cope with what’s about to change? Feels like an acid trip, this life – Is it what I signed up for? Well I don’t think it’s working out Like I thought it would when I arrived Now we barely stay afloat! I watch it all falling down Beside my feet lands another clown If I prevail, will I succeed? No matter, I stand tall and I watch it all fall down It feels like I’m in a movie I play a role with undeciphered lines My fellow actors, they don’t know They’re on the payroll ’til they die When they initiated this program Created with a quote Humanity was something beautiful The perfect note – Now it’s all a crappy joke! I watch it all falling down Beside my feet lands another clown If I prevail, will I succeed? No matter, I stand tall and I watch it all fall down Ring a ring o’roses, a pocket full of posies A-tishoo, a-tishoo, we all fall down I watch it all falling down Beside my feet lands another clown If I prevail, will I succeed? No matter, I stand tall and I watch it all fall down Lyrics and Music by Emma L.M. Sweeney ©2021 All Rights Reserved	Table
BEAUTY QUEEN How do I look in her beautiful clothes? Well, they fit quite well and they’re not that old So, you said it was over, that it was your decision And you’re happy with me now So why do I feel so unsure? It’s like she sleeps with us each night It’s her you want to make love to She always steals my limelight Just when you are falling for me ‘Cause she’s your Beauty Queen She ain’t nothing special, but that’s not what I mean She’s like my shadow when I stand by candlelight I don’t think that this feels right, no She’s your Beauty Queen If I opened up your heart, I know just what I’d see Her pretty face laughing back at me If she’s so special, why did you leave? When we go out, moving on the dance floor I know your eyes will be over my shoulder Looking to the door Though I may be with you, it’s like she’s got some hold I want to call her up and say: “Woman, please let my man go!” She doesn’t do it consciously She’s back in love with someone else But something’s there Right where it wasn’t there before ‘Cause she’s your Beauty Queen She ain’t nothing special, but that’s not what I mean She’s like my shadow when I stand by candlelight I don’t think that this feels right, no She’s your Beauty Queen If I opened up your heart, I know just what I’d see Her pretty face laughing back at me If she’s so special, why did you leave? You make her out to be a saint That even God could not contain With every word, our love you taint All these distorted facts you paint You’ve shown me yours, I’ll show you mine Your punishment, the end of time You want to play, but not with me You play with your sobriety Lyrics and Music by Emma L.M. Sweeney ©2007 All Rights Reserved	Table
BROKEN Lyrics and Music by Emma L.M. Sweeney ©2007 All Rights Reserved When I think back, didn’t know that The life I’d lead would break me And the ones that I’d be close to would only let me down I believe in being open but a thief will always get in He’ll take what’s in your heart This is for you – you made me feel dirty in my own skin This is for you – all your promises have done me in And this is for you – You gotta know that your knife’s done bad I never did nothin’ to you but you could have been A better friend than stabbing my back (How could I know that you wouldn’t be there for me? (How could I know that you’d let me down time and again?) Now I’m not broken any more I found a cure, or should I say a cure found me And I’m a better girl than I’ve ever been I’m not broken any more You don’t own me now – I’m fixed now In the nightclub, at a party…I never found my soldier Who would lie down in the trenches and cover my old ground I believe in being truthful but a lie is so inviting To those that bring us down Now I’m not broken any more I found a cure, or should I say a cure found me And I’m a better girl than I’ve ever been I’m not broken any more You don’t own me now – I’m fixed now It was hopeless, I was sinking I couldn’t clear the mess I was in Then I heard him here beside me Waiting for me to come round I believe in things that I see and I know that my enemy can’t touch what’s in my heart
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CELEBRITY OBSESSION Lyrics and Music by Emma L.M. Sweeney ©2007 All Rights Reserved Celebrity obsession… It doesn’t matter if you got a slice of talent Because they only want you if you’re messed up It helps to be Daddy’s Little Princess An hotel heiress, American child star If you don’t have the look and you don’t fit the mould You can’t be something that you’re not just for the money Let me tell you what I learned up ’til now It’s all about the one that you date, that you’re cheating on (You ain’t going nowhere sailing down the mainstream) The drugs that you take, anorexia they feed upon (Nobody wants you if you won’t make a fool of yourself) Reality shows, cocaine up your nose (Come over here, just shut your mouth) Private videos…where can I get those clothes? (We don’t want opinions, we just want someone to talk about) Don’t worry about it if they catch you doing something Because they really love it when you mess up It helps to be tweakin’ in the morning Perezalicious, half-hearted Wino Don’t bother learning your craft – that’s a fact If it wasn’t so pathetic it would be some kind of funny Let me tell you what I learned up ’til now Overdose…miss the gig…man, I think I’m pregnant Did you call OK? Let’s have a happy ending Say cheese, pretty please, it’s the paparazzi I quit my girl band – new perfume out next week! Who’s that man on my step? He says he knows me Did we have a thing? Did he get any photos of me? I can’t move my face! I can’t move my face! Oh my goodness, my fillets just won’t stay in place I bet you wish you looked half as good as me I bet you wish you were a celebrity It doesn’t matter if you got a slice of talent Because they only want you if you’re messed up It helps to be married to a footballer Breast augmentation, comedian’s daughter If you don’t have the look and you don’t fit the mould You can’t be something that you’re not just for the money Let me tell you what I learned up ’til now
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Table	YOU DON’T KNOW ME Lyrics and Music by Emma L.M. Sweeney ©2019 All Rights Reserved Drugged up and emptied out Stacked up and cracked down (Barely 21, you feel 100 years have gone) Mind-funked and overwrought Programmed and partied out (Keep your legs closed, eyes open, functional black hole) You can’t hide, it’s not right, you know that So don’t try, just take flight! I see you slutting through the bars In the back of cars, taking men home (Keep your legs closed, eyes open, functional black hole) Looking for a place to lay your head You’re giving head like it’s all You’ve gotta give, something’s gotta give, you gotta give! Still you say! Don’t criticize what you don’t know, you don’t know me! (I’m too high tonight, I’m falling from the sky) Just fantasize about the side of me I want you to see! (Don’t glance behind the poisoned paradigm!) Everything is wonderful And I’m so damned happy This hole inside my heart feels good Believe what I’m saying… Don’t criticize what you don’t know, you don’t know me! (I’m too high tonight, I’m falling from the sky) Just fantasise about the side of me I want you to see! (Don’t glance behind the poisoned paradigm!)

Lyrics

PROPAGANDA (2007)

OTHER

CELEBRITY OBSESSION

CHRISTOPHER

CRAVE

DAYS GONE BY – ROCKSTAR ALLSTARS

DEAD AND BURIED

HOLLYWOOD

HONESTY

I AM WARRIOR

(I ONLY DO THESE THINGS ‘CAUSE) I LOVE YOU

INTO THIS

ISLAND

MY LOVE

NEVER ENOUGH

NOT YOUR WHORE

PROMISE YOU

ROLL THE DICE

SALUTE TO THE QUEEN

SCREW YOU

SEEN IT ALL

SWALLOW

TAKEN IN

TONGUE TIED

TRICK OF THE LIGHT

VIOLENTLY

WAITING

WHITE ALLIGATORS

YOU DON’T KNOW ME

ALPHABET ON MY TONGUE

A LITTLE MORE LOVE

ALL FALL DOWN

BEAUTY QUEEN

BROKEN

CELEBRITY OBSESSION

YOU DON’T KNOW ME